I am no longer a teenager, but why am I acting like one? That
is what happens when you meet a cute boy and you feel like a little girl all
over again...
Pretending I Am A Third Party Perspective
One evening, a friend asked you to join him and another guy
to chill out. The other guy happened to
be a cousin of someone you know and is also from the US and is now in town. You said yes, why not? The first time you met him, you found him
gentleman enough. You did not think of
anything else, you were just chilling out, you said. He is the first cousin of
someone you used to go out with! He
asked for your number and you gave it out of courtesy, no malice. Some of your
conversation revolved around his family, who you somehow knew because you used
to go out with his cousin, but he did not know that. The evening ended.
The following day, your friends from work asked you how was
your night out. You just said, “puede ko
matipuhan yung guy, fits the profile, but he is the first cousin of ...” You dismissed any more thoughts because that
was just a single, chill out night. By
lunch time, you received a text from the guy asking how you were and if you can
meet up again for the night. You were
distracted, not knowing what to do, to say... para kang 14 y/o na kinikilig! Goodness,
you should have seen how you acted! And by the night, yes, you went out to meet
up with them again for a night cap. He
was the kind of guy that when you texted that you were already in the parking,
he went out to fetch you; when you needed to move your car, he accompanied you;
when you get home, you would expect a text asking if you got home safe and
would tell you that he had a nice time with you.
He did mention the night ago that he wanted to go out to a
videoke, you said ok. It was a Friday
night, you were with your friends from work and you invited him to meet you up
in a ktv. Your friends were discreetly
teasing you, but you were trying to dismiss the thought. Then he sang, “Wherever you will go.” You melted, in the inside. You almost did not sing at all at the ktv
because you were too self-conscious, parang 14 y/o na nahihiya. Of course your friends never stopped teasing
you. He wanted to bring you home, but
... next time na lang. He texted to
check you out if you got home safe and sound and you were kilig up to the
following day. Kasi naman may tight hug pa mag goodbye eh!
Next day, he invited you for dinner. You agreed to pick him up. It was really late, so it was more of post-dinner,
chill out thing. It was the first time that you were going out just the both of
you. You asked if the friend is going
with you and he said, “No, istorbo lang eh.”
Now you were starting to feel he likes you... He openly says he is
enjoying his time with you. You were
funny, spontaneous, not maarte (where I beg to disagree!) at all. Holding hands, a little akbay was fine, but
when he started to kiss you... bang! That was when it all felt awkward; you
just had to tell him that you used to go out with his cousin. Being a guy, he asked if his cousin and you
were still together, and you said, No and there was no commitment at all. Then he said, there should be nothing to
worry about. He started telling you
about his life too.
You felt the connection between the two of you. It was fun, light. He likes you and you liked him too.
The following day was an invitation for dinner again. Korean dinner was it, but it was a threesome
(the friend is in the picture...hahaha I
am sure you were disappointed in a way, what you were expecting little girl?)
When you quipped your funny retorts, he says, “Yan ang gusto
ko sa iyo eh, lagi kang may sagot.”
“Yan ang gusto mo sa akin, ibig sabihin, may gusto sa akin?”
you said.
“Oo naman. Bakit ikaw, di mo ba ako gusto?” When this was asked, I doubted if you were
able to answer. Knowing you, you just
smiled, rather, smirked and rolled your eyes.
(But in reality, that meant, yes i like you too)
Monday was your work day and he had other planned activities
with relatives. You didn’t see each
other that day and that was sad. The day
felt incomplete.
The following night
was to catch up for whatever was lost the other day. You picked him up after your work, asked for
Chinese late dinner because you were craving for it, spent the night talking
and being funny again. He liked that in
you.
Then he had to attend to other family activities in the
coming days, you felt bad about it, not seeing him for quite some time. 4 days.... Yes, you texted and checked each
other out, but you wanted him to be around.
He knew you were upset. So the
following night, may it be your working night, he wanted to see you and he did,
he came all the way from Cavite with the trusted caretaker and a high school
friend to see you. He was making up for
the missed days. He showed you off to
his friends, told them how pretty you are, how funny you are, how much he likes
you. He held your hand most of the
time. He even stole a kiss from you in front
of the friends! Yes, you turned red. 14 y/o eh!
The caretaker was a young lad who he had invited to join for
drinks. “O bat, natatahimik ka? Kanina
ang daldal mo? Nagagandahan ka sa kanya
no?” he told the caretaker. And the
young lad turned red. But was cool
enough to nod. The caretaker was even so
willing to cook for you should you go to Cavite! Hmm.. we can talk about your charms another
time...
Time to end that night, he walked you to your ride, holding
your hand. He kissed you and said “bye, i love you.” You said the same, “bye, i love you.” Now how did that happen??? You just didn’t know, but you know you liked
him a lot. By the time you were ready to
sleep, he called, saying he was not sleepy yet and said nice things. You had a little chat, but when it was time
to really sleep, you said good night to each other and said i love yous again. Then you slept, with a smile on your face.
Last night you can be together, he was bound to leave the
country the following day. Once again, you met up with him and his friends, had
some drinks.
“Bagay sa iyo ang white, ang ganda mo.” Wait a minute, is he being my fashion
consultant now? Ran in your
thoughts. You said thank you for all the
admiration he showered you, whether he meant it or not. Did I fail to mention that you found him good
looking too? He is.
He was really fond of you and was not shy to admit this to
his friends. You talked about spending
the night and you did. The morning after was time for you to go to
work and time for him to get ready for his flight that day. That was goodbye time. You never talked about the i love yous the
night before, you just talked about going to miss each other.
But after all the date nights and sweet talk, you will
realize at the end of the day that you are a woman of age and that you met a
man of age. You are a woman who had a
child out of wedlock, who had fled from an engagement. The man you met is someone who is divorced,
who has three kids. Now you said goodbye
to each other, probably will be missing each other, but this is when you
realize you are really 41.
